The Conversation

Attacked on every side,
Battered, bruised, perplexed,
My mind going A.W.O.L,
Playing games, which in effect have turned me up side down,
Inside out, no way round this mess.

I cry out. No response, no body hears my request.
I wonder if God is really out there,
Is He just?, is He able?,
Does He want to work with me?

He answers simply “YES!”
“I’ve given you power to tread on serpents,
To walk in the Valley of death, to stand in the midst of demons,
And to reign victoriously, despite troubles ahead.”

I think to myself, “Surely God, you can’t be talking about ME?
I’m only young, not all that stable and I certainly don’t live life to the ‘T’! ”

“ Stop your noise!” He responds again.
“ For I am no respecter of age, race, colour, creed,
All I see is My child in need.
I’ll set your pathway straight and stablilze you in all your ways,
If you would only have faith, I’ll set you a blaze.
I’ll fill you with My spirit and empower you to praise!”

“But God” I interrupted, “I told you I’m no good,
When evil presents itself before me, I never chose the One I should.
I always fail and fall into despair,
That’s why I wonder Do You really care??!!”

“Hush My child” He speaks yet again, “For I am all you need”

I interrupt His flow, “Can you elaborate please?!”

He laid it to me like this:

 “I lace the lilies of the field, give them beauty so bright
 Feed the birds of the air, they don’t have to ask twice,
 Give the sun beams to shine, and the moon to reflect”..,

I tried to get a word in,
He said “NO!!! I’m not finished yet!”

He continued to astound me, with His authoritative word,
Showing all His promises, some I’ve never heard.
I thought WOW!, How blind I’ve really been, all this time I felt alone,
He was always on the scene,
He never left my side, not even for a sec,

For that alone God, I must respect.
I stopped interrupting and listened some more.
He told me what He’d done for others and how He’d opened plenty doors.

I thought “YES LORD!!!” that sounds good to me,
I was besides myself when He told me He was the key!
All I had to do was let the key in my lock,
Great things would happen, they just wouldn’t stop!

When I sat and thought about it,
And began to seek God and pray,
He then showed me, He IS the only way.
He is the Giver OF Direction, Salvation and Life.
Then it hit me – I didn’t need to go through all that strife!!!
At the beginning I mean, when I felt so depressed and disillusioned with life.

I could have avoided all that,
So now I’m telling you,
Chose God, Chose Salvation,
And believe me, He WILL come through.

Copyright © Sabrina Barrett, November 1999

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