The Experience

“God is real, He’s so real, He’s real to me”
Sang Rachel as the choir began to sway to the music.
She continued to sing about the wonderful things God has done,
As the choir followed her in heavenly harmony.

I’d sat many Sundays in Church being blessed by the choir,
But never really had the experience of God they sang about.
My life way far from pretty,
And I longed to experience the realness of God for myself.

I sigh, as I wonder what it is really all about?
Is it just coming to Church, clapping hands,
Raising the roof with a shout?
There has to be more.

I ponder some more, the service now in full bloom.
Mother Beckford dances in the aisles,
While others raise their hands in praise –
Some saying “Hallelujah!”
And others speaking in the beautiful unknown language
My mother used to tell me about when I was young.

I sit here watching, wondering why don’t I experience things like that?
I was dry as Ezekiel’s valley of bones –
Desperately in need of some life.

Bro. Moses begins his sermon: “God is real!” he booms,
Telling us of the mysteries of God and His majesty.
I was listening, but my attention was distracted
As I heard a still small voice speak to me:

“You long to experience Me,, but what you fail to see
Is that I am all around you –
The sky, earth and sea. I am everywhere.
Nothing can contain Me or hold Me back.
I am great ‘I AM’ – Jehovah Shammah.

I catch you when you fall,
Dry your eyes when you cry,
Hold you in My arms when you experience heartache
And scream at Me helplessly “Why??!!”

Draw closer to Me and I will draw even closer to you.
I will not leave you or forsake you.
I will hide you under My wings,
Protect you from the storm, Guide you through the valley,
Sit up with you through the night
Waiting for the dawn.”

“Repent! Repent! Repent!", was the next thing I heard.
“All you who wish to know and experience the reality of God,
Come and give your life to Him”,
Said Bro. Moses with such an urgency,
I could not ignore.

Before I knew where I was,
I found myself at the alter,
Crying and confessing my sins before God.

I accepted His Son, Jesus, as my Lord and Saviour that day.

20 years ago that was. I still remember like it was yesterday.
He stayed true to His word and kept me through my trials and heartaches.
He never left my side – ever!

I can now understand and proudly say:
“God is real, He’s so real, He’s real to me.”

Copyright © Sabrina Barrett, February 2001

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